The Sun Persists in Rising
To say the last few weeks have been hard would be a grave understatement. I have driven back and forth from Columbus to Cincinnati, Ohio at least six or seven times within the last three weeks. This driving has caused me to put my life, my job, and my plans on hold and has caused me to undergo a very depressing demeanor for the last month or so. Now, i don't want to go into what exactly happened for privacy reasons; but a great person in my life, someone who has loved and cared for me since i was born, suddenly became very ill . She was placed into the hospital for 3 weeks and was released last thursday. From last thursday my mother, father, and I have been running back and forth in order to help her. This has caused a great weight upon my mother, who happens to be my best friend. "Milky Twilight" was a way for me to express the stress and sadness that's been happening between my family members and I. We have always been a people that stand together, but a part of me is a little disappointed in them today. I don't believe that two or three people, particularly two that don't even live in the same city, should be in charge of taking care of their entire family alone.
This entire issue became a huge dilemma for me, i didn't believe everybody was a part of the same family and therefore, i didn't consider things they said to be important anymore. Why should i pay any attention to them? Why should i try to help those who in turn will not try to help her? Why should i care at all, about anything they think, say or feel... i truly wasn't concerned. It was a rather dark place for me, someone who often tries to remain within the light and love of those i know and have trusted.. nevertheless, i felt myself loosing respect for the people i had always looked up too.
Thats when i was playing on facebook during a 10 minute downtime and saw the new Hunger Games poster. "The Sun persists in rising, so i make myself stand." When i saw that, being an avid Hunger Games fan, i was immediately inspired. The Sun too must have gone through a few ups and downs, but everyday it rises. Everyday we are warmed and kept alive by the Sun and who am i to not stand because of a hardship? We must always try to stand, even if it's hard because that's what we do to grow. It's the only way we can be proud of ourselves in the end, even if those who are supposed to be standing aren't. I know that what i've done is right, because i've been here helping all along. I can't say the same for many people, and that's alright because I can say it for myself. Try to always stand, because that's what we are meant to do. All the hardships to be seen but never to change you. You are here because you are meant to be, and you must always try to be the best you can. People will remember you for being the best you can, but they will definitely remember those who are not always being the best they can. They will be remembered, forever, as a person who didn't come to the aid of someone they supposably loved. That isn't how i want to be remembered, ever.
